Post by RAYNE CANDACE MUNDELL on Apr 11, 2011 15:37:14 GMT -6
rayne candace mundell
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TWENTY : CIRCUS : FIREBREATHER
SARCASTIC : DRIVEN : DETERMINED : NEEDY
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my whole life was a joke. well, to me it was anyways. my mom was always working, my dad trying to recover from hangovers every morning. they never paid attention to me. i know i know. its sounds cliche and i’m trying to get a pity party from you, but it’s the truth and by the time i was ten i had come to accept my lifestyle. i learned that i would have to provide for myself. sure my mom put money in for the family, but my dad usually spent it on alcohol and drugs. i don’t know why my mother stayed with him. said she loved him. bullshit.
while i grew up i continued to support myself, and by the time i was thirteen i began to feel this empty void inside. i didn’t know what it was, but i found myself doing whatever i could to get attention. drinking large amounts, trying any drug within my sight, sleeping with men. i craved attention. i knew why, but no matter what i did it wouldn’t be filled. face it, my parents ignored me. so what did i do instead? i did everything i could to be the center of attention. i had infamy attached to my name, i wasn’t famous at all. most knew me for all the wrong reasons. so, i continued on and by the time i was fifteen i had a job and started to save up money to get an apartment and move out of my house as soon as possible.
finally when i was seventeen i moved out. i was free from my old life and i took it upon myself to start anew. i finished out high school but took a year off before starting college. i had no idea what i wanted to do with my life. i didn’t even know where to begin. i was strolling through town one night when i spotted the big top. i was bored so on a whim i bought a ticket and watched the show. i gotta say, that was the best thing to spend my money on. it was inspiring really. it gave me an idea of what i wanted to do.
when the show ended i didn’t hesitate to stop the first performer and ask for a gig. i didn’t care what they made me do. all i knew is that i wanted to be out there in stealing the crowd. it’s been a few years since and i still love what i’m doing. so, come stop by for a show. you won’t regret it. i promise.
ALEXANDRA DADDARIO : TELSA : PM
